Today I am 50 years old. 50 years of living and learning on EarthSchool. The election happened less than a week ago and I feel like I am slowly moving through a waking dream.
It is an interesting experience to be so focused right now on grounding, breathing, getting my bearings, remembering what is important, cherished and valued.
So this is what I know to be true about my own experience of the first half of life on Earth School.
I am blessed beyond measure to be surrounded by support and love.
I am blessed to have made so many, many mistakes and failed often so these things no longer have the power to hold me back from moving into uncharted waters.
I am blessed to have lost the fear of being laughed at, ridiculed or belittled.
I am blessed by my ability to laugh at my awkwardness and revel in joy at my awesomeness!
I am blessed by my inability to remain silent in the face of oppression, exclusion, and all else profane that holds any of us back from seeing fellow humans as anything other than Children of God.
I am blessed by the certainty that even if it terrifies me I will speak Truth with Great Love to power that seeks to dominate and suppress light in people.
I am blessed with the discipline that even though I struggle to sometimes witness my own light, I do not give up seeking it in myself and in all beings.
I am blessed by so much absurdity and spontaneous dancing that fuels my spirit and connects my heart and soul with others on this spiralling path!
I am blessed by an insatiable curiosity and desire to learn with a beginners mind and a passionate heart.
I am blessed by my (grown) children who show up wholehearted in their respective passions and convictions.
I am blessed by my husband John who ALWAYS has my back and knows how to talk me off the ledge.
I am so blessed by the people who have been real, authentic, often raw, allowing their vulnerability as well as our collective imperfections and have together shared our wounds which are kissed by light.
I am blessed by a love and longing in equal measures for God and to live in this space with an equally open and broken heart.
I am blessed by 50 years of hugs, tears, laughs, heartbreak, deep connections and love. All of it.
I am blessed.
Thank you for for this life.
